Quite All Over the Place

-After sitting through Psychology today, I now have accepted that I have Dependency issues to work on. I'm going to conquer them I guess.
-I enjoyed To Write Love On Her Arms Day. Although me personally, I've never been suicidal or resorted to negative coping mechanisms, I do believe everyone deserves to be given that becon of light. I'm only sad I only got two people(Steve and Kelly cause they didn't realize it was today) to participate.
-I'm probably one of the only people you'll ever hear to complain about a 99 overall average(until my report comes that is). I just feel like I have to work harder, I want to achieve the 100+ milestone.
-I kind of miss someone. I saw them as I was leaving school. I spent the whole busride home thinking, and really, I don't understand why things got that way. Like honestly, they didn't do anything to me or anyone around me to be perfectly honest. It was their life, why should I not be friends with them because of the fact that they can't distinguish good from wrong? This doesn't mean I want to become friends with them again, but if the next time around they IM me, I'm inclined to say hi.
-Bet you the ceremony won't happen tomorrow, and we won't be notified until we're all about to walk out the door.

Currently Listening to: Black Sabbath - War Pigs.

And They're Off..

Here is my attempt at making sense of all this shit speeding through my mind at this moment

-I guess all the work I've had with the conclusion of the first quarter has me a tad stressed. I know my grades will be fine, it was just really stressful, and I know the second quarter only gets worse. Oh well, gotta do watcha gotta do I suppose.
-Monday or Tuesday(I honestly forgot and really don't want to remember what day it is), I begin 40 days or so(I also don't remember the sentence) without a male figure in my life. Oh joy.
-I need a job. I have no money and it really sucks. I want to get everyone gifts this Christmas. I'm going hunting today for one. Hopefully all goes well, or at least something.
-With what happened last week, the fear of not wanting to fuck up and lose everything.
-The progress I'm making with the guitar. Its been going great. I can't wait until I have an electric. That's when the true fun begins.
-All this shit with getting the hell out of this place. I so badly want to just pack up and get the fuck out of here, for real. The sooner we leave, the better.
-The Yankees winning. Other than probably November 26th of this year(Hopefully :/) and winning my Baseball Championship, watching that probably made my year. I called it from the beginning of the year and stuck through and endured the long season almost as much as they did. Great job boys, looking forward to seeing you all try and defend that title next year(PS: Please re-sign Damon and Matsui).
-Paranormal Activity. That was a great movie. Definitely the best I've seen this year. I of course, went against the norm of other people and did not find it scary whatsoever.
-Approximately 9 PM to 11 PM last night. It all felt passionate and nice. I really do love her. We're gonna be just all right, I know it. Its all too perfect to not stay that way.
-Getting in shape and doing Baseball things. Its getting harder and harder to do anything Baseball related when you have nobody to do anything with. The sport I love is becoming less and less popular, especially as the fall drags itself into the devil that is winter. Workouts are coming up, but part me doesn't even want to do those. I'm really kind of growing resentful of school sports after hearing about Joe's season. One play all year. It really sucks when you have the heart and determination to do something, but because you're not sucking your coaches dick or whatever you're not good enough to play.

I think that should be a good start.

Currently Listening To: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Dani California.