Luck...Runs....Out

A dense, morbid feeling fills the air on this Saturday evening. Life isn't fair has reared its ugly head once again. It really does suck when you want to find a solution, but every solution is flawed, filled with holes like a slice of swiss. Every action is supposed to have a reaction, not two thousand. What can any of us do? What hope can any of us have?

Sometimes you can avoid these feelings, replace them with happiness that takes away that morbid feeling. But I guess today was one of those days where it just wasn't going to go away. Nothing any of us can do will solve these problems. And unfortunately, the people that its put on to find these solutions don't deserve it. It shouldn't be up to her. She has enough on her plate. She is doing her best to make life better for us, and is doing such hard work for it all that sometimes I wish it would be appropriate to just give her a pat on the back. It shouldn't be up to the other her either. Why can't parents just be parents? Why does every possible action have six different things stopping it from happening? Why is the world truly a place, that evil always wins?

I am glad I have my bracelet however. It's my symbol that you always are with me no matter what. You were right, today was going to be different. I felt like we actually appreciated each other today. We actually felt like, hey, we're tremendously in love. I'm glad, we should feel that way all the time. Sometimes if you bring about the positives, all the negatives just go away. I don't give a fuck what anyone says, our love is, can, and will conquer all. Nothing is going to stop us. NOTHING.

"Still you run, what's to come? What's to be? Cause we hunt you down without mercy. Hunt you down all nightmare long."